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I had to sit and watch a woman die because we were woefully understaffed

After a 16 hour shift in my first year as a junior doctor, I had to sit and watch a woman die because we were woefully understaffed. I held her hand as she took her last few breaths and all I could do was tell her I was sorry.

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During the pandemic, I had to tell families their relative was dying multiple times a day

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Nobody really prepares you for how many times you’ll have to watch the life drain from peoples eyes

Nobody really prepares you for how many times you’ll have to watch the life drain from peoples eyes. The amount of families you have to console after you’ve told them news that will destroy their world. You see things that you see in your sleep. I’ve had to have counselling and I’ve seen therapists to […]

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I was tired of being told I chose this career

Despite the pandemic being over, on my return to AMU I could see things had arguably gotten worse. I continued to witness my colleagues trying their best to treat their patients, but being unable to deliver good care. We were practicing trolley medicine, treating patients wherever we could. I saw patients in the 80s and […]

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I’ll never forget the sounds of them crying as they said goodbye for the last time

During lockdown we would have to set up phone calls and video calls for residents so they could speak to family before they died. I lost count of how many times my heart was broken as I watched relatives howling over zoom calls as they saw their elderly relatives struggling to hang on, just to […]

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The impossible situations we find ourselves in and the abuse we take on a regular basis…

Got called f**king useless yday by a patient because she hadn’t received her hospital appointment in a timely manner (which I have no control over) The impossible situations we find ourselves in, and the abuse we take on a regular basis…

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Every day I consider leaving general practice because it’s simply not worth the stress anymore

The situation in Oxfordshire is dire, we are stretched to breaking point and it’s been taking a toll on my mental health. I’m having to do the job of three GP’s and yet I’ve been threatened by a few patients saying they will make formal complaints or even sue if their health is affected due […]

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On my first ever nightshift…

I was the only doctor looking after 450 patients by myself, and I had to save four critically unwell patients at the same time

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I’ve lost count of how many times I’ve had to make a split decision and decide which patient to save.

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I had to leave a job because I couldn’t afford to work there anymore

I had to leave a job I love and residents I developed close bonds with because I couldn’t afford to work there anymore. One resident in particular had no family so I was the closest thing he had. One week after leaving I found out he passed away and I was devastated. I felt like […]